prosperitee

well, its slow but 2-3 lbs slim down. things are looser but still will feel better once past the 5 lbs marker! enjoying the food at freshdiet.com its creative and diverse and taste great, all at 1300 cal. i tried some raw food this week too (not for me!)but who’s counting?

its even proved easy to bring out with me. either it still taste great cold or i ask friends if we can go to whole foods where they have a microwave at the cafe.

on fitness, i went to gym 3 times last week, 2 on treadmill and once for yoga class, then hit the blissed out and more budha-ish yoga studio for 2 classes. its making all the difference with my back. its amazing. i didnt like the stretch class too much yesterday–too packed! but the basics class, i was able to move well, which is shocking considering the pain i was in only a week ago. still haven’t made it to the pool at the Y, but will try again this week. but big difference is me taking the stairs everywhere! it proves the extra workout push i need!

i will posting under a different name, my anonymity was comprised! look for the feet at the beach pic in your new buddy up requests!

everyone be well, good luck with your fitness and food plans this week =)

yesterday was a successful food day. so i guess i will acknowledge that. today i need to add fitness to the mix. i have a severe back injury that i am recovering from and i plan to return to the gym today after 6 weeks. doc says i can’t do much, but the walking on the treadmill seems to be ok. i would like to walk at least 30 minutes.

i just want to say that while i am working on portion control as some of you know. i want to make it clear that i don’t eat junk food. if not for the healthy white chocolate chip muffin the zone place sent with my dinner (amazing!) i probably haven’t had chocolate in maybe 5 years. i received some nice replys yesterday but a few misunderstood and told me not to use the gym as an excuse to eat junk. my doctor thinks one of my medications increases appetite so its very difficult for some one in my situation to distinguish between physical and emotional hunger. that new british book that is all the rage called i can make you thin, writes eat whatever you want just eat slowly, and goes on to say the body will regulate itself–well, why it may work for some–i say, if the body regulated itself, most of us wouldn’t be here! i don’t know other people’s story but i was happily prancing along being a teenager until a modeling scout told me i could make money if i wayed 10 lbs less. i was 5′10 and 130lbs at the time. my body was more mature than my best friend’s. but that began a life long struggle. i am not aiming for anything like that now. not to say that i don’t notice when those ideas are being reinforced! this week along i watched 3 TV shows where the woman’s head seem unnaturally large for her body! and her chest bone was portruding! if you focus on, its so disturbing! living in NYC everyone is a rail! i’ve worked hard to have a realistic goal, but i lose weight slower than most. so when i decide to make changes, i work on settling on a mantra that will carry me through. what are some that i am mulling over? sometimes they are affirmations, sometimes they are reminders. “the weight is falling off” is a fun one. nothing will screw you up more than thinking your hard work doesn’t matter. thats the kicker for me. and its interesting how we can learn so much about ourselves when it comes to how we deal with the weight journey. the stuff that comes up for me is usually the same stuff coming up in my career. i try to take note, but then again–i can’t have it all figured out–thats a reminder! but i was asked some good questions this week. so i have listed them below, because i do think we have to look at the weight journey as a path to self-knowledge or its just not compelling enough to inspire true commitment.

how motivated are you to lose weight? somewhat, middle of the road, extremely?

how will you know you are losing weight beside the scale?

how will you reward yourself after you loose 5lbs?

what has caused you to fail in the past?

what times of the day are hardest for you when it comes to your food planning?

how do you feel about exercise?

what kind of support system do you have in place to support these food/fitness changes?

name three reasons you want to lose weight.

name 3 things that will be true about your life when you lose the weight.

when you see your self successful, what else in your life is different?

i’ll be thinking of you all as we embark on a new day of fitness and food and wellness…and self-control, self-reliance and self-awareness!

you’ve heard the joke…

“diet is a four letter word”

hi today is my 2nd day of doing a zone meal delivery diet. why after years of healthy food and varying fitness am i choosing something with the word diet in it? i am not sure. i have a few thoughts about it and i hope they are not rationalizations but i thought up this idea to create a blog outlet for myself to assist the self care commitment.

so this morning i had an omelet and now i am to have a salmon burger, it doesn’t sound so bad. but mind you these meals are small. i have noticed they are filling too-with the right mindset.

the thing i thought i would work on is portion control. the tricky part for me is…i never eat so called forbidden foods. as it turns out i am apparently…perfect….just kidding. no, i really don’t eat high sugar, high carb, it just doesnt happen. but the thing is, when its time for brown rice or peanut butter on whole wheat. i don’t know when i’m full. i don’t binge by any means, but i honestly am not sure when to stop eating, and as much i think i might have watched it, the scale is just not tipping the right way.

I am not over my goal weight by that much. 12lbs less would make a big difference for me and I will write more on that another time.

but mostly, i lost 40lbs in 2005. i enjoyed it too! that also is another story. but over the last 4 years, i have just watched it slowly climb. and so i feel back to the drawing board, when like oprah said recently-”i thought i had figured it out!”

my age changing, my genes, etc there could be other factors at work, and i understand that, but i have to think that something can change on my end too.

and not to sound too depressing, but in all my life, that myth of if you work out, you can eat what you want (and want i don’t mean rice crispy treats) is just a myth, its never worked. loosing weight will always mean controlling what you eat, and we can’t quit eating, its not like smoking (of which i quit 2002!). so what do we do?

i am tempted to fake a epiphany in support of an interesting entry but i will surrender with just a thank you for reading.